A Film by Ben Lemaire


I came out as a transgender to my parents months ago. Before talking to them I was hopeful. I was terrified, but I was hopeful. Too much hopeful.


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    Ben Lemaire

    Ben Lemaire is a French film director, photographer and writer based in Paris.
    He directed his first short film, Clair Obscur, as a student project and got his first awards (best film at Troyes Premières Marches, best music at Astoria Festival...). As he's from a musician family, he orientated his work on music. In 10 years, he directed 300+ films, such as music videos, commercials, unplugged sessions and various experimental movies. He collaborated with artists like Justin Bieber, Bruno Mars, Asaf Avidan, The Script... In 2010, he directed the first season of P20RIS, a musical web series. Known for being a music talent scout, he worked with many artists in development such as Lilly Wood & The Prick. He directed a feature for the band, shown in cinemas in 2013. After some experimental shorts, he directed Je suis différent.e in 2017 before starting filming Requiem, his first experimental feature.
    Blogger since 2003 on his website QuoVadis?, he collaborated with satyrical blog Megaconnard and was invited to national publications like Agoravox or Le Post, to talk about culture and society. His opinion pieces were often commented in media. He discovered many young artists like Asaf Avidan, Justin Bieber, Fauve, Shaka Ponk or Skip The Use. He also shot 1500+ gigs and worked as a press photographer.
    In 2015, he created a management agency to advise web and cinema celebrities on digital communication. His work with Sophie Marceau, Juliette Binoche or JoeyStarr was often commented by French medias.
    Ben Lemaire is also a writer. After an essay in 2006, he publishes since 2010 a poem book each year. As a surrealist, he's interested in experimental writing, and worked on how to create without any human intervention in the writing process. In 2014, he published Aléas, a novel totally written with an algorithm, and Randomness in 2017, a poem book in English written with another algorithm.

Awards + Festivals

  • 8th NIKON FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Paris, France)October 21, 2017
    LAKE VIEW INTERNATIONAL FESTIVAL (Official Selection November, Moga, Punjab, India) November 1, 2017
  • DIRECT SHORT ONLINE FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection November, Online Festival)November 1, 2017
  • 2nd SARAJEVO FASHION FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Sarajevo, Bosnia and Herzegovina)December 1, 2017
  • BARCELONA PLANET FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Barcelona, Spain)December 2, 2017
  • 18th BRUSSELS INDEPENDENT FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Brussels, Belgium)February 11, 2018
  • 3rd STATEN ISLAND’S FILMMAKER’S SHOWCASE (Official Selection, Online Event, USA)February 24, 2018
  • 2nd INDIAN WORLD FILM FESTIVAL 2018 (Official Selection, Hyderabad, India)March 18, 2018
  • VIDEONALE 2018 (Official Selection, Berlin, Germany)March 17, 2018
  • 7th LEEDS QUEER FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, UK)March 22, 2018
  • 34th WICKED QUEER - THE BOSTON LGBT FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Boston, MA, USA)March 30, 2018
  • 9th MULHOUSE TOUS COURTS (Competition, Mulhouse, France)April 6, 2018
    6th TRANSGENDER FILM FESTIVAL 2018 (Official Selection, Kiel, Germany)April 18, 2018
  • 3rd CINEMQ (Official Selection, Shanghai, China)April 19, 2018
  • 4th SYDNEY WORLD FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Sydney, Australia)April 23, 2018
  • 28th INSIDE OUT TORONTO LGBT FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Toronto, Canada)May 4, 2018
  • 7th BRIEFS EROTIC SHORT FILM COMPETITION (Official Selection, Oakland, CA, USA)May 10, 2018
    2nd FICCSUR SOUTHERN CONE INTERNATIONAL FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Valparaíso, Chile)May 24, 2018
  • PORTO 7 - INTERNATIONAL SHORT FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Porto, Portugal)June 13, 2018
  • 10th CINEGLOBE FILM & VR FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Geneva, Switzerland)June 28, 2018
  • 3rd DRUNKEN FILM FEST (Official Selection, Bradford, United Kingdom)July 15, 2018
  • SOMMERLOCH FESTIVAL 2018 (Special Screening, Braunschweig, Germany)July 18, 2018
  • 18th BLISSFEST333 INTERNATIONAL FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Denver, CO, USA)August 25, 2018
  • MOSTRA INT’L AUDIOVISUAL CURTA O GENERO 2018 (Official Selection, Fortaleza, Ceará, Brasil)September 10, 2018
  • 20th THESSALONIKI INT'L LGBTQ FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Thessaloniki, Greece)September 28, 2018
  • 1st LGBTQ COMING OF AGE SHORT FILMS FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Paris, France) 29.09.2018September 29, 2018
  • 1st LGBTQ COMING OF AGE SHORT FILMS FESTIVAL (Official Selection, San Francisco, CA, USA)September 29, 2018
  • 11th FILMZEITKAUFBEUREN (Official Selection, Irsee, Germany)October 1, 2018
  • 3rd CUZCO UNDERGROUND CINEMA FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Cuzco, Peru)October 3, 2018
  • 4th MINIKINO FILM WEEK 4 (Official Selection, Bali, Indonesia)October 6, 2018
  • 23rd TWIST - SEATTLE QUEER FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Seattle, WA, USA)October 11, 2018
  • 4th GRAND RAPIDS FEMINIST FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Grand Rapids, MI, USA)October 13, 2018
  • 13th LEEDS INT'L FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Leeds, UK)November 1, 2018
  • 4th BAHIA INDEPENDENT CINEMA FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Bahia, Brazil)November 1, 2018
  • 18th INDIANAPOLIS LGBT FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Indianapolis, IN, USA)November 9, 2018
  • ANDALESGAI: FESTIVAL DE CINE LÉSBICO, GAY, BISEXUAL Y TRANS DE ANDALUCÍA (Official Selection, Sevilla, Spain)November 23, 2018
  • 20th REELOUT QUEER FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Kingston, ON, Canada)January 31, 2019
  • 5th INTERNATIONAL MOTION FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Nicosia, Cyprus)May 6, 2019
    4th MEXICO CITY INTERNATIONAL FILM FESTIVAL (Official Selection, Mexico City, Mexico)July 18, 2019


Ben Lemaire
Ben Lemaire
Arthur T. Manderley, Julien Dujardin
Director of Photography
Ben Lemaire
Art Direction
Ben Lemaire
Costume Desgin
Ben Lemaire
Ben Lemaire
Ben Lemaire
Sound Design
Ben Lemaire
Thomas Balmforth, Bob Bradley


Running Time
Shooting Format
Digital (5D Mark II)
Screening Format
DCP, BluRay, DVD, .mov, mp4 (HD), H264 / DCP
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